These last 24 hours have been an emotional roller coaster and I’m completely drained. I’ve been angry, sad, embarrassed, betrayed, upset. I’ve gotten so pissed off I’ve seen red and I’ve felt so sad I’ve cried till my eyes were dry. Having found out that I’ve been cheated on has been the most emotionally taxing thing that has ever happened to me. Seeing the photos of the times we spent together left me feeling so used up and beaten down, and getting a text from him asking for one last kiss left me an angry beast ready to beat the shit out of him.
I’m in bed now and I’m just so drained. My head is pounding from all the anger, my eyes hurt from all the crying, and my heart is sunk so low right now from the betrayal. I don’t want to carry these feelings around anymore and I refuse to allow someone to have this much control over my being. I promise I’m going to get myself up and dust myself off and that I will walk with pride and dignity. I’m a beautiful person and I’m worthy of respect and love. I want to thank all of my followers who have sent me support today, it’s so helpful knowing that so many people are sensitive to what I’m going through. Thank you all for sharing your stories and reminding me that I’m not the first to go through something like this.
May your dreams be pleasant tonight everyone and please remember to take a moment to tell those special people in your lives, those people that you don’t always show your appreciation for, how much you love them and how happy you are to have them as a part of your life. Those are the people that will be there to pick you up and dust you off and be the shoulder you cry on when life knocks you down. Don’t ever forget to love with an open heart, to value yourself, and to take a moment every day to be grateful for all the good things and people in your life.
Yours where the air is sweet,